Trying to think and questioning???

Why are you entitled
to stroke my stomach
like a turtle, upturned
vulnerable to the sun
burning.
i am capable of poetic words
it does not mean i have nothing to say
on my two way radio
flapping sapping the sap out of me
like a dying tree
underneath a capitulating Caucasian dream
flip side me, so i show my shell again
hard edges of desperation
separation from the sea side shore
I'm not sure, obscure witless anger
dice the apple ate i on core
pips displaying
raw
not needed to create the new tilled soil
grasp the earth
i am done with that
disarm
unarmed
no longer a farmer.

Butterflies dont fall in love with me

I lied to you,
told you I could dance on tables
that i could sing, the lyrics to,
i don't get around much anymore
play tenor sax,
I lied to you
to impress, saying sculpture were easy for me
portraits were a natural art
i could sew you a petty coat
i could captain a boat
wave goodbye to a crowd
i lied to you
i do not know Latin, nor Greek
i cant do calculus or
streak rainbows in the sky
for a child that is not mine
i lied
but be damned by it
i lied for a reason
its simple
i told tales
because i needed you
apologise i do
i can not see the shadows on the moon
nor can i draw down the flames of the sun
i tried to, believe me i did
the sweat was real, the perspire
butterflies don't fall in love with me
thats real.
I am not a liar.

Drink diving into the abyss

As i tyre
depressed grip
on the road of life
i swerve
to avoid another connection to somewhere
deflated
insulated, why did i create
this curator, again of rubber illusion
fusion, on the highway
not used to high
ways
ever
i always seem to dread the
cords ripped
stripped, and flipped like an egg
on the hub cap heated
unbuckled on the back seat
brake
take the given
of
last nights
beer
sorry baby
forever severing
your neck from the back seat
tension
the prison sentence.

Master Bates, slave trader,power

There for master
said it all in a whip lash
told me so
again and again and again
said it once and twice before
i ain't saying, he was a he after all,
he did to me
bled on the outside, and internally.
drove me,
to the edge of the field,
drove me through the night
drove me to the edge of my mind
i saw it it in his eyes, absolute delight
i is trying, master
i is dying master
i is falling, bastard
fell, bleeding again
insane this, I'm human master
ain't no donkey ass
I'm bleeding master
seething through my teeth
master, disaster of you,
take me home,
no boats to sail me east
no Africa on the horizon for me
I'm here to stay
master
bates,
you all must get off,
on this power
of this.

Tap

Tap
underneath the ice cap
tap
I cant breath anymore
tap
let the ice break, please
I swam
tap
i need to find the
tap
to
tap
to
tap
tip toe pressuring on the
tap
i am underneath the ice cap
tap
its right, no left, no north,
life flashing before your eyes
my love
my child
tap
breathless now
sink below
i tried
horrified
no answer to the
tap.

Yesterday was my birthday

yesterday was my birthday
it came to me and went away
like a kaleidoscope of colours
i feel enhanced and set to stray.
multitude of a thousand destinations
caught in a web of destitute Brazilian
prostitutes, whoaring, i pimped
sizzling, fizzing.
As if goose fat on potato's
creating, roasted
my brain on fire, thinking
toasting.
BBQ, you, are cooked on the outside
yet raw in the middle
I play on bow strings of the double bass
i fiddle upon the fiddle.
Treacle me, absorb the sauce
flailing one fine way
cook my age in absorbent times
yesterday was my birthday.

Ever glades end

Everglades
eyes, of alligators
creole of soul
on rye bread
fed
too much, and as such
teeth embedded, shredded, just because he said it
snapped to, hover boat
down his throat and staid
rotten too long
too many words can get caught
in the mouth of the speaker
end it while you can
end it while you
end it while
end it
end.